Listening to: the Cranberries - when you're gone
Reading: manga scanlations
Watching: youtube make up tutorial
Playing: Sims 3
Eating: cheese cookies
Drinking: hot cocoa
its been so long since I wrote. idk why, maybe I'm just not a pour-your-heart type. but I cannot hold it sometimes. and my best friend was married now, cannot bother her too much anymore, and the other best friend was busy indulging herself so bad to drown her own misery. It wont be fair to damp her fun with my sadness...
okay then. I quit from my last job. since Nov 2011 - March 2013.
Not that I want to actually, but the boss has been putting some not-so-subtle signs that he want me to quit. in example:
1. he refuse to let me become a 'permanent' after he says 3 months probation, I'm the only one who must sign and re-sign the contracts to extend my work. 6 months, 3 months, and 3 months again after the 3 months probation.
2. my HRD says for herself that actually, Mr. Boss expecting the other girl to come and working again after she quits (just 3 months), since she must do her final FINAL assignment from her Univ. so they hanging me up until the girl returned, not that she wants too, considering Mr. Boss was kinda tight with money.
so my company was stuck with me.
3. in the beginning of interview, MR. Boss says that every staff,would get 2 raise a year, in January and July. me? since I got in on November, ofc I miss my first January raise. I did get a raise for 'passing the probation', but I didn't get any raise for the July, and not for the next January.
to make the matter worse, 2 newbie (just graduated from senior high) get a raise both.
4. He said it himself, that if you don't get any raise, it must mean your work doesn't hit his qualifications, and it's better for you to resign yourself rather than being sacked.
I know I should be searching a new one first, but I cannot help it anymore. I'm so tired of him asking me to do sooooo many things without my 'promised payment'.
he asks for loyalty, I give him mine, I don't even get any interviews, since it will make me havta go and abandon my work for half a day. I prefer to work and get things done. and everytime I go to malls / everywhere nice, and I saw cute things, I immediately think if I can use this idea for my work. see, even my free time wasn't really mine.
I admit that I fail him in few aspects. I play the internet, I text, I YM. and most of the time my quota wasn't fulfilled. but come on, tell me how to fulfill a quota if Mr. Boss accepting drawings -> samples, but rejecting the whole result in the end? he's just wasting a full 10 days and blaming it all to staffs. The helll.....
and the internet thing? the HRD who said it (highly about herself) that she didn't play any internet after 8 AM, except opening office gmail for worker applications sent, I caught her open Youtube... FVCK.
so well, I resign. no regrets. just now I'm having a hard time with no money. I wish I could land one soon enough. I really need it, with oncoming July trip to Bangkok. and some friends lend me their money, I need (NEED) to have money, fast.
if only my drawing were good enough to make a commission...